Journal Night

Oh god, i dunno how many journals i had read..

Read until my eye become blur blur...

I tot will be very easy just to change Part 2 to relate into our industry..

But actually is not.. Definetely not ah...

Need to refind journal again... It become narrow and narrow..

To my beloved group leader :

Relax.. I never complaint ah.. Haha..

To my beloved groupmate :

If you all need any help In MCI just tel me...

Coz actually i damn enjoy to find journal...

Just the reading process...

When you read, all the information is like pushing into your brain..

But at the same time, you need to rearrange it and write it out in another way...

Wow, damn challenging...

Hometown Day

Friday i ady reach hometown lu...

Everytime, when i parking my car outside my house,

My little sister sure open gate and come out help me carry my stuff..

Is like her job ady... She sure say : 大姐，回来啦？我帮你拿东西。。

Therefore，everytime when i go bek hometown, i sure bring a small beg..

Let her to carry... If not she want to carry my laptop...

I stil remember got one time, she carry my laptop..

Then all the while walk into the house, she keep saying 大姐，很重啊。。

Then she fall down, i laugh until cant stop... She is so cute...

if one day i reach home, she never come out mean she is sleeping ady..

Once she wake up, she sure ask why i never ask her wake up when i reach home...

She just like my maid.. When i reach home, she automatically help me throw all the dirty cloth into the washing machine...

Then, if the fridge got any fruit, she sure tell me and take for me to eat...

She know that i like to eat "Bak Kut Teh"..

And yet, everytime i go bek, my mum sure never cook..

When dad ask what we going to eat for our dinner..

My little sister sure say "Bak Kut Teh" lah... 大姐喜欢吃。。

She even know which shop i like to go...

Recently, is durian season.. She know that i like eat durian also...

After dinner, she ask my dad buy durian for me..

Reach home keep on ask me to eat, but i still very fulll...

But have to eat lah... Telan saja bah.. Since she keep on ask me eat...

I feel very warm when i reach my house..

Is all because of my little sister...

Her cuteness melt my heart...

When i unhappy, she will ask me why...

Ask me dun unhappy... And ask me to play with her..

If i at home, she all the while wont go out.. Stay at home with me..

Even i just stay inside my room...

Without her, my family wont have hapiness..

Without her, my parents will lonely...

Altough she will very scare me, but she stil very close to me...

I sayang her a lot....

End

My Little Sister...

Hmm.. Suddenlly think about my little sister...

Everyweek, she will call and ask me when i will be going bek hometown..

After she know how to read number, she get my hp number from me and memorize it..

Keep calling me.. Now she become my second mum ady. Haha...

Conversation as below :

Little sister : 大姐，你几时回啊？干嘛这么久都还没回来的？

Me : 干嘛？还不懂，大姐要读书啊。没那么快回。。

Little sister : 为什么读书不能回来的？你回来啦，我很想念你。

Me : ok.. 大姐星期六回。。

Little sister : 几点？？ 不要很晚喔。

Me : 差不多下午就回到咯。。好啦，大姐要读书咯。。你去做功课啦。。

Little sister : 拜拜大姐

Through the above conversation, do u all think my little sister very kepoh..

Like my mum.. My mum also never ask me, but she eveyweek at least call me 3 times..

And yet, she ask back the same question...

This is my little sister... She like to act cute a lot.. Miss her...

Nvm, i going to see her soon...

MADM I Love You

Oh my god... I nearly crazy because of you..

MADM.. I Love You so much...

Why you treat me like that??

Can let me undertsand you more??

Understnad you better and better??

You seem like hiding everything from me...

Please tell me the truth.. I really hope that i understand you more and more...
Please give me a chance.. Just a chance...
What you had tell, i cant even understand..
Your word is too hard to understand..
Can make it simple and easy to understand??
I put all my effort on you.. Hope that you really understand...
MADM, i love you and i will never give up on you..
Jia You!! Jia You!! Jia You!! Jia You!!

~Transformer & Clubbing~

Well, yesterday i went to midvally to watch Transformer 2 at 8pm..

I reach thr a bout 6pm.. Then, looking present for my firends..

As what jamie say, July we all going to pk..

A lot our friends' birthday is on July.

For me, i got 6 friends' birthday is on July.

And yet i just bought 3 presents..

Hope you all will like wat i present to you all..

Look at the picture below... Is barbie which wearing bridal veil...

She look pretty and cute...

After, we finish our show about 10.45pm, we went clubbing at Poppy in KL..

This is the first time that i go clubbing without drinking any alcohol...

All the way, i just drink sprit and coke...

Clubbing place is really damn suck..

Here are some pictures during clubbing...

Bani and his Gf (Joan)...

Me and Beng kim..

Joan and Me..

Hoho, last but not least... Is me here...

End

Our House's Alvin

Today afternoon, when i sitting at living room, i saw my housemate lying on the chair and watching movie.

This is the picture from behind.

This is the picture from in front.

Suprise??? I all the while tot that he is watching movie.

What the.... This is our house's alvin.. And all of us is his chipsmunk..

Feeling Bad Right Now

Relationship is such a very complicated thing..

What i have now, i already very satisfied.. Never think much..

Do i have any problem???

Why misunderstand problem always happen on me??

Secondary school until now...

Izit my face problem???

Sorry that make you feel envy or jealous towards me...

I never mean it.. Really... WE ARE ONLY PURE FRIENDs!!

All of us know, right????

Utar Library is SUCK!!!

Today, after our thesis discussion,
me and shi ting went to library to find case study...
You all know wat happen???
First, just let you all know that today a wear a t-shirt with a skirt...
Utar library have a rule that, girl cant wear skirt to enter library..
So, i went in there with my id..
Then, a guy sit beside the door and say to me,
Excuse me, wear short pants cant go in...
At that time, u really want to reply back that...
Sorry, this is short skirt not short pants, can you differentiate pants and skirt?
Well, i never do that and i just leave...
At that time, my brain is telling me that why utar have such rule that wear short skirt cant go in library...
Dont you all think that this is so annoying...
Why wear skirt cant go in library?? Why??
Utar is also free that care about our apparel, but never do anything to the theft case that happen everyday..
Today, i went to dsa, i saw a girl report to dsa stuff that she lose her bag outside the library...
I really have no comment about Utar.

15 May 2009

I never update my blog quite a long time...

At first, i plan to update for my past few months' life..

But.. I feel so lazy.. hehe.. Next time bah...

Well, this sem is a tough sem for me..

But i think i stil can went trough it.. Because... Result not yet out..

So cant comfirm about it.. Hehe..

This holiday got a bit different...

Seem like a very very long holiday for me..

It all because of "YOU' went Askar Watania for 1 month..

Whole holiday is like empty for me...

Nvm... End of this month, i going Langkawi with my friends lo..

Hope that will be a nice trip...

Starting from today, i must everyday update my blog until you come back...

Because, we cant contact anymore...

No phone is allow during the training.. Sad...

And also a way to update you about me for this whole month..

Today, nothing special..

Wake up, breakfast, play game, lunch, play game, watch movei, dinner, dota, blog and sleep..

A boring day...

Wish to get some part times, but few so lazy..

Busy Busy Busy....

This sem, it was so so so so so busy....
This sem is the hardest sem for marketing student...
Really worry that i cant manage my time... WORRY!!!!
This is the second week for this sem.. Normally we will start busy on week 4..
But, i 1st week ady very very busy... After my 8pm class, i stil got meeting..
This sem time table is so "NICE", 3days end with 8pm class...
DAMN... Yesterday, i got 4 class with 1 hour break, i m so so so so so tired..
BUT, after a whole day class, i got meeting again... Until 10pm..
Reach home bath then sleep, cant even do my tutorial..
Another day, i got 9.30am class and i also end at 8pm...
After that meeting again ---> Ball dance workshop
I want a REST... Assignment all not yet touch.. I really worry...
God, can u give me 1 day 48 hours??? I m very tired!!!!
2 more events to go.. Career forum n Ballroom dance!!!!
Please give me more rest time and my personal time!!!

BACKKKKK...

Just back from the camp.. Mr Ng, you really teach us a lot that cant be express in words... Take iniciative, dont do the minimum, face our fear, team work, power of thought.. Before this, CDS has organised the Power of Throught Workshop.. During the workshop, i like dreaming... Coz i late go in the talk, after that i was not concentrate anymore...

During the workshop, i miss the part the "Hand may grow longer".. That y after that i dun trust wat Mr Ng say that if we imagine, believe, concentrate and achieve, nothing will be impossible... But now i trust.. The message Mr Ng trying to tell is like build up our confidence.. Just i think lah..

After the camp, our committees had a long long meeting (3hours).. During the meeting, i feel she really change... The way u say us, is TOTALLY DIFFERENT.. Like Mr Ng say, dun judge people, wat u say just wat u think n tot.. I learn from it too.. This time, when she say us, i never had hard feeling.. The way she say like i assume that wat wat wat... I tot that should be wat wat wat.. ADD ON ASSUME AND THOUGHT THESE 2 WORDS, the wordS she say out is so nice to hear.. She ady apply this...

Our bad side is we always think about people bad things, we never think about people good things.. One mistake, we will keep in our heart and we started to judge the person.. In this, i did the mistake... Really feel sorry.. After the camp, i think back actually she did a lot for us... Just sometime the way she say us is like judge us, then we keep in the heart and we forget her good things.. Actually before that, i really learn a lot from her, when i saw her, her face always tel me be confident to urself, nothing that u cant do it..

Hope after the camp, all of us will become better and better & apply what we had learn from Mr Ng.. Mr Ng, you really chnage my perception a lot.. Thanks..

Under Consideration

Recently, i am thinking that should i become inactive committee in this society???
Since, one of our committees also not active in the society??
If any event, i just join but dun organise..
For this society, i had give out most of the time, i think other committees too...
And we also scarified a lot.. But wat we get??? A Certificate..

We dun mind to work more, coz we enjoy yo work together...
We organized a lot of events, everyone had put a lot of effort..
But got anyone appreciate wat we did?? I agree wat my fren say..
We have no choice, we just a committee, sometime we can only follow the way that the head did..
Even though, we are not agree.. Izit like this??? Even we got grievance, we only can keep silent..

Sometime, i am thinking isit all this is my problem?? Isit i never did my best?
Isit i never put effort?? Can anyone give me some advice?? All this just my thinking only???
Nowsaday, i feel hard to work in this society... I feel this society is no hope..
Totally give up.. Because of this society, i sacrified my part time job to earn money, even though i lack of money now...
So what this society give me?? EXPERIENCE?? I agree that i learn a lot from this society...
BUT i feel so unhappy now.. Everyone of us not because of the cert, but is because of us - (we are friends, we must fight the end) Right?

I Am FUCKING ANGRY!!!

I cant tahan anymore... I already GIVE UP on this Society...
Everything, we had done will never get any rewards BUT get scold...
I agree that i am the committee, i need to be responsible to my post..
BUT, i am not THIS SOCIETY's WORKERS, i had never never get any SALARY from this Society.. For what i give most of time to this stupid society, at the end, i just get a FUCKING SHIT CERTIFICATE..

Application of deposit delay, izit is our treasurer problem??? 11 of Dec, i ady say that need invoice only can apply the cash advancement for the deposit... At the end, we cant apply coz of too late only past up the invoice.. 29th of DEC at afternoon, we get the camp site invoice from Seng Hong. At nite, we only get the speaker invoice from OUR PROGRAM HEAD.. So, izit our treasurer problem? We ady did our part to tell u all that need invoice only can applay cash advancement, WE HAD DID OUR PART OF JOB..

Second, the treasurer model letter, both of our teasurer really never get it.. BUT Miss Sevanese said already sent to us. THE TRUTH IS WE REALLY NEVER GET IT!! This thing, we are never delay..

Third, WE ARE NEVER PUSHING THE RESPONSIBILITY TO EACH OTHER.. SOMEONE CALL ME on 31 dec and say me this and that.. Christine need to meet Thesis advisor on Friday.. And i ask her to wait a while.. i call her back later coz i need to ask my mum permission and ask about Christine something.. Can anyone tell me, if u stay at home, u need to go out, u as a child no need to tel your mum izit??? Just a simple question... Why u need to say me until like I DID FUCKING LOT OF MISTAKE..

MAY I ASK YOU BACK, IF U STAY OUTSIDE THAT MUM NOT AROUND YOU, U NEED TO ASK PERMISSION TO GO OUT?? NOW THE SITUATION IS DIFFERENT, I STAY WITH MY FAMILY NOW, OK??? PLEASE THINK BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING!!! I M NOT YOU! DONT EVER THINK THAT WHAT YOUS THINK IS ALWAY CORRECT... PEOPLE DUN WANT EXPLAIN NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE WRONG, IS DON WANT MUCH MORE TROUBLE!!

I don want to fight back not because i am wrong, is for what i need to fight back.. No use.. When got problem, please to keep scold.. For wat?? Scold can settle problem, then everyone also want to scold.. Please think before u relaese your anger to someone... I really dunno what ia my mistake that kena scold.. The mistake that i say call back later to ask my mum permission?? At the end i go pj not because you scold me, but is because my responsibility.. THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU SAY SOMEONE!! IF ONE PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE WRONG, MAYB THAT PERSON WRONG, BUT WHEN EVEERYONE SAY YOU GOT PROBLEM, PELASE THINK ABOUT IT!!!

~EMO~

Hmm... 3am in the morning, i stil not yet sleep, what am i doing now??

What am i thinking now?? Waiting?? Thinking?

Sometime, i really very confused.. Do i trust what you had tel me??

I dont know?? CONFUSED MOOD!! What you say until now, i stil cant get it..

Do i dreaming?? Do i hoping?? Do i trust?? Do i wait?? Do i cry?? Do i sad??

Haiz... I am blurring... Izit got HOPE in this world???

I hope to get a better result..

I hope my "dream" come true..

I hope to get some care..

I hope to meet my secondary school friends..

I hope to pass all my test as soon as possible..

I hope can forget all my bad memory..

What am i takling now?? All bull shit!!

What you hope, u need to get by yourself but not waiting it...

I starting to get used, i starting dont know how to cry, i starting dont know tis the sad feeling, isit good for me?? Isit good for human that dunno how to cry and feel sad??

Attitude & Personality

What is the different between attitude and personality???
Unlike personality, attitudes are expected to change as a function of experience...
Everyone got their own personality and attitude..
Both of it can be negative or can be positive..
Today, i realise my negative attitude. i hope to say sorry to all my friends that make them feel bad before..
Exspecially for Jamie, Shi Ting and Wan Ying..
Hope you all will forgive my mistake.. I will change my attitude..
I agree that 人不能做回自己, because of my straight forward, because of my confident, make people around me feel bad...
Everyday, got different people criticed by people, but they dont care..
I dont mind or care that wat they say about me.. Coz is real and that is the feeling i let them feel.. BUT I care that they wont treat me as friend anymore and stil angry me...
END

~Is Time to Change~

Sherly, is time for you to change...
You are such a weak girl..
You are such a dependent girl..
I dun like, I hate myself..
I dunno why i feel so down and sad..
I dunno why i feel want to cry..
I dunno what am i thinking now...
Can i overcome this all???
I hate my lifestyle alwayz changing...
Each time changes, i feel so confuse..
I feel so unsatify.. I feel so unhappy..
Sometime, i even feel that i really cant overcome..
Nvm, i just need some time..
Give me some time... I promise myself that i dunwan change my lifestyle anymore..
Really hard to overcome the changes...
I want to be independent..
..END..

What Am I Doing Now??

Sherly, what are you thinking now??

Hmm.. Dunno.. I feel unsafety..
I feel like no matter what i did just like nothing..
~I feel so Helpless~



~END~

~I AM BACK~

Hehe.. Hi, everyone, i m back..
Today i had upload 4 blogs
1 blog for 20/09/2008 , 1 for 30/09/2008 and 2 blogs for 01/10/2008
Well, now, i having my holiday...
Damn boring to stay at home.. But no choice...
If go out, then need spend money again..
I am poor... No Money...
Everyday eat, sleep and watch drama...
Really is a pig..
Yes, i am.. I gain 4.5 kg weight in one month..
Oh no... 44kg now become 48.5kg..
No... I have to control myself.. Dun eat too much..
Everyday also eat and eat and eat.. FAT GIRL!!
Well, this week is also my little sister holiday, everyday just play with her..
And everyday she also kacau me..



END

Final Coming~~

Well... For this whole week,
i spend 7 hours in UTAR Library everyday..
Damn Seinz.. But no choice.. Have to...
But there is something very funny thing happen..
I dont want to tell much, just have have a look to the pic..
The paper pasted on Library's wall for one day..
Damn paiseh for Him.. Haha..
Hmm.. I thinking after my Final, where will i go??
Nothing special.. Every sem almost the same...
Just back hometown and do nothing...
Really long time never update my blog~~
Hehe.. Means there is nothing happen on me...
Should i feel happy about that???
I can have a simple life again...
I hope everything for now just to maintain..
I dont want any changes again... Can i??

Past Few Weeks..

Quite a long time, i never update my blog..
I think is about 3 weeks ady..
In these 3 weeks... I had a lot of changes in my daily life..
I hope this will stand for long term but not short term..
Thank you to all my friends who are concern about me..
Haha... I had relax myself for this 3 weeks..
WENT CLUBBING, WATCH MOVIVE,
STEAMBOAT WITH HOUSEMATE,
CELEBRATE BRITHDAY FOR HOUSEMATES,
and also SPEND TIME WITH YOU..
Hmm.. Wat i feel for the past few weeks neh??
HAPPY? DISSAPOINTED? SAD? CONFUSED?
No matter what is my feeling for last few weeks..
But i know my feeling for now is HAPPY..
Final coming soon.. I must JIA YOU..
Sherly, GAMBATEH!!! You can do it!!
MUST STUDY HARD!!